Snowed in

Yesterday afternoon around 2:30 it started snowing tons. By the time 4:30 hit and we decided to close the coffee shop there was at least six inches of snow on the ground. It took about thirty minutes to get home as opposed to seven. Cars were in ditches and wrecks were everywhere. I must say, as much as I hate to be stuck in one place for more than five hours I kind of enjoyed it. I sat around the house with a few friends ate chicken noodle soup and had some beer/wine followed by playing in the snow around midnight. When I woke up I was really wanting to leave but I tried to make the best of it. I don't ever have any free time... let alone me time. So I sat around listened to music, read, and baked. It was sort of nice.

It makes me feel inferior,

I really dislike the fact that people around the age of 18 through 20 feel so rushed to go to school. Motivation is something I do lack, yes.. but I feel that some people around me push themselves over the limit to achieve much more then they can mentally handle. I decided that I would take this year off for a bit to grasp reality and really get a feel of what it's like to be on my own before I move elsewhere. I really would love to go back to school.. I just want to be completely ready and know exactly what I want before I pay for college. Design is my calling... I feel that way more and more. I do plan on getting a degree in Communication Design.. I'm just not in a hurry. I am 19 years old. I know what is best for myself I just need to really get completely motivated before I do it. What is there not to understand?