Snowed in

Yesterday afternoon around 2:30 it started snowing tons. By the time 4:30 hit and we decided to close the coffee shop there was at least six inches of snow on the ground. It took about thirty minutes to get home as opposed to seven. Cars were in ditches and wrecks were everywhere. I must say, as much as I hate to be stuck in one place for more than five hours I kind of enjoyed it. I sat around the house with a few friends ate chicken noodle soup and had some beer/wine followed by playing in the snow around midnight. When I woke up I was really wanting to leave but I tried to make the best of it. I don't ever have any free time... let alone me time. So I sat around listened to music, read, and baked. It was sort of nice.

It makes me feel inferior,

I really dislike the fact that people around the age of 18 through 20 feel so rushed to go to school. Motivation is something I do lack, yes.. but I feel that some people around me push themselves over the limit to achieve much more then they can mentally handle. I decided that I would take this year off for a bit to grasp reality and really get a feel of what it's like to be on my own before I move elsewhere. I really would love to go back to school.. I just want to be completely ready and know exactly what I want before I pay for college. Design is my calling... I feel that way more and more. I do plan on getting a degree in Communication Design.. I'm just not in a hurry. I am 19 years old. I know what is best for myself I just need to really get completely motivated before I do it. What is there not to understand?

October

It's October.. meaning fall is here. I can't wait until all of the leaves fall so I can rake them up into one ginormous pile and jump in them. Also, I want to carve funny things into pumpkins and make pumpkin muffins. If you can't tell.. Fall is my favorite season and it makes me love life.

update

It sucks when I start to constantly deceive and over analyze my everyday life.
It only happens on occasion... I just hate wondering. Whatever.

I believe I'm moving into that apartment November 1st. It should be interesting. Change can be scary but change is good. I'm just nervous about getting a little bit obsessive compulsive about how I want things to look in the new place.

another apartment?

So, as usual... the apartment thing with Nicole came up again. It's above her boyfriends new apartment.. so basically Nicole and I will be upstairs and Jordan and Sam will be downstairs. Freaking awesome. An entire house full of friends. We are turning in an application probably within the next couple of days. I hope everything works out.

I really wish I had a new bed though.. I still have a freaking twin size bed from when I was little. I may try to convince someone in my family to buy me a new bed. (like that would ever work) ooooorrr if someone has a bed or any furniture they would like to give away they should give it to Nicole and I! I get way too excited about these things. I shouldn't get my hopes up just in case we don't get the apartment.

It will be so awesome to live in this apartment though. I love decorating.. I mean, we may not have much to decorate with seeing as how we probably don't have many things to use. We will work it out! Plus.. the bills in all is one of my paychecks.. not including my tips. Hallelujah

I love this.

On the daily

I have something awkward happen to me and I love it. (at times) Generally, I am one of the most awkward people ever.. so I suppose that's why strange things happen to me. It's crazy how I take these exciting moments for granted. I often overlook them without realizing how hilarious they are. I could give an example.. but there are way too many. Pretty much, anyone that I hang out with on a regular basis will know what I am talking about.

Anyways, recently I have realized I need a planner. I need to actually carry one around with me at all times and check it frequently. People call me flaky.. (I understand why) My ADD feels way to extreme. If someone tries to make plans with me, half of the time it won't work out because I usually do things in the moment. Which sucks I suppose. Maybe I just have way too many things to do everyday and I don't really make time for them. I need a medium.