update

It sucks when I start to constantly deceive and over analyze my everyday life.
It only happens on occasion... I just hate wondering. Whatever.

I believe I'm moving into that apartment November 1st. It should be interesting. Change can be scary but change is good. I'm just nervous about getting a little bit obsessive compulsive about how I want things to look in the new place.

another apartment?

So, as usual... the apartment thing with Nicole came up again. It's above her boyfriends new apartment.. so basically Nicole and I will be upstairs and Jordan and Sam will be downstairs. Freaking awesome. An entire house full of friends. We are turning in an application probably within the next couple of days. I hope everything works out.

I really wish I had a new bed though.. I still have a freaking twin size bed from when I was little. I may try to convince someone in my family to buy me a new bed. (like that would ever work) ooooorrr if someone has a bed or any furniture they would like to give away they should give it to Nicole and I! I get way too excited about these things. I shouldn't get my hopes up just in case we don't get the apartment.

It will be so awesome to live in this apartment though. I love decorating.. I mean, we may not have much to decorate with seeing as how we probably don't have many things to use. We will work it out! Plus.. the bills in all is one of my paychecks.. not including my tips. Hallelujah

I love this.

On the daily

I have something awkward happen to me and I love it. (at times) Generally, I am one of the most awkward people ever.. so I suppose that's why strange things happen to me. It's crazy how I take these exciting moments for granted. I often overlook them without realizing how hilarious they are. I could give an example.. but there are way too many. Pretty much, anyone that I hang out with on a regular basis will know what I am talking about.

Anyways, recently I have realized I need a planner. I need to actually carry one around with me at all times and check it frequently. People call me flaky.. (I understand why) My ADD feels way to extreme. If someone tries to make plans with me, half of the time it won't work out because I usually do things in the moment. Which sucks I suppose. Maybe I just have way too many things to do everyday and I don't really make time for them. I need a medium.

House of Leaves

So, the book House of Leaves was recommended to me by quite a few people. It's not necessarily an easy read. It is sort of difficult because of the layout. There are different fonts and sentences going diagonally or backwards across the page. I must say though Danielewski is a fucking genius. I cant even begin to explain how intelligent and enlightening he can be. This book is a combination of horror, surrealism, and love. It was fantastic.

Birthday time

So, yesterday was my birthday. It was a pretty fun and relaxing day.. I woke up to my parents pretty much shoving gifts in my face. That's not something to wake up to everyday. It was nice. No drama from my parents for once. Aside from a relaxing birthday it was also eventful too. Two parties and two family get togethers.

.. I always feel slightly awkward at parties (even if I know everyone there)
Anxiety issues I suppose.

One thing I am pretty excited about- I am probably going to receive a ton of Polaroid film from my Grandparents on Sunday. I don't know what it is about Polaroids, I just love them. Also, I talked my dad into giving me his old film camera from the 60's or 70's. We'll see if it works.

Chao

More to look forward to;

Finally, more to look forward to. At the beginning of next month I am seeing mewithoutyou and the decemberists. It's going to be great. I haven't ever really been too big on the decemberists until I heard their new album- Hazards of Love. It is wonderful. Don't get me wrong, I liked the Crane Wife... It was just one of those albums I could listen to once in a blue moon. This is a wonderful start off to summer. I really want to go to Bonaroo to see Andrew Bird, Pheonix, MGMT, Bon Iver and more... I just don't think I can afford it. Although... I'm going with my friend Kfish to Warped Tour to see P.O.S and Thrice. It will be super fun.
Chinga Ling
Bing Bing

I'm strange.

Want to hear how ADD I am? =/
I've started on five books... they are all really great... I just have a tendency to not finish them!
I begin a book, get really into it... then somehow, I won't have time to read it for a week. So, I come back home and think to myself... Oh yeah, I wanted to read this book... and start another.. without finishing the one I was reading before.
What the nasty.

Oh more news on the apartment search: Me and my friend Lauren are looking at an apartment on Thursday. It is HUGE. I'm pretty pumped to see it.

& Damn... RJD2 is great.